Life Complicated.

So here I am again, back at square 1 .
This is honestly one of the crappiest feelings Ive ever had, and it hurts, and I dont like it.
This is the feeling I least expected coming out from this.
I wonder if some of it is my fault, if it is anyones fault.
I guess I got my hopes up, and then I got hurt in the end, unintentionally .
What am I supposed to do ? Move on, pretend it doesn't hurt ?
I cant do that. It does hurt, and its gonna take a while to move on, especially after feeling like this.
Other than the fact that theres school, where he's around.
And I want to stay friends; its better than nothing at all.
Its just gonna be pretty hard, wondering about what couldve been.
It was going great, I was so happy .
Argh I have got to be the unluckiest girl on this planet -____-
Just when you think everythings gonna fall into place for the first time, theres the unexpected turn and you're back to nothing.
Idk how to feel now lmao
maybe Im acting like its a bigger deal than it really is, but I really do feel like crap o.O